Starting Over, Yet Again

Well since my last post I must say I am doing a lot better. I actually ended up seeing him on Thursday as he dropped all the stuff that I had left at his house into me at work. There was a sense of finality getting back things like shampoo and cleanser! When I saw him everything seemd okay between us though. We had a bit of a chat and I said that I would like to remain friends with him seeing as we get along so well, and he agreed. I have not called him or anything since then. I went out last night with some work folk for drinks and I must admit, I started to miss him. We used to speak every day and now we are not. I think the fact that I "can't" call him and am not "meant" to is what I am finding so hard to deal with. I guess this is something that I will have to get used to over time. I am keeping myself busy and going out and doing plenty of stuff, however there is still a void left and I feel lonely, no matter how many of my friends I surround myself with.