Well yesterday I had a very exciting day as I received two parcels in the mail for my birthday. One was from the lovely Miss Rebecca and it was a gorgeous red leather bag for me to take travelling on planes etc and the other one from Jason. That was a bit of a big surprise since I had told him via email never to contact me again. He sent me a glass necklace that he bought for me in Croatia at the beginning of his trip, and also some pencils from the London Zoo (a bit of a joke between us as we used to buy a pencil whenever we went somewhere touristy). The card said that he was sorry for breaking my no-contact request but that he wanted to wish me a happy birthday and send me my gift. He also said that he bought it at the start of his trip and that he would never have given it to anyone else as it was meant for me. Please don't think I am writing all this because I plan on ever getting back with him, because I don't but it has all just made me feel a little strange once again. When i said I never wanted to speak to him again, it was because I seriously did not know how I would get past it all at that point. However, now that I have moved on and i have a new life and a new love interest, it really wouldn't bother me if we had contact or not. I really don't know where I am going with this....but I do think it's funny how as time goes on, you do get over a relationship break up, but at the same time, as a result of time passing, you also forget some of the bad things that happened and just remember the good. I now feel as though I could forgive him, but I don't know whether that is the wrong thing for me to do. I am finding it all perplexing as I don't like not being in control of my feelings once again. I am happy that he sent me the gift, because it is lovely, but at the same time I wonder if his intentions are pure in doing so?
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
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I think at some point you have to just ask yourself if a person is going to be a positive addition to your life or not. Do you *need* to stay in contact with him ? Why would you *want* to. I think it's best not to ask why not, but more why should you.
I hate it when good people forgive shit people because they think they should or can't deal with not having a bad mark against their name. Don't be that person, I like you at the moment :)
You gotta take care of number one sometimes.
I think as time goes by, people grow up, and the things that caused problems in the past, may disappear or become less important. Of course that's only in some cases, there's limits and I don't know the full story. I just think as you get older, you learn to not focus on that stuff, and move on to better things. Holding grudges and keeping problems tends to be boring.
Having said that, if there's no point for contact, other than a yearly "hey" catch up (via person or e-mail or whatever), I don't see anything wrong with that once everyone has moved on with their lives.
I just think even if you don't hold a grudge, as is often the case if the other person isn't evil, you still have to consider if they will add to your life.
There are people I have no interest in knowing and make no effort to do so even though they want to spend time with me. I just don't enjoy their company and think they'd do better finding someone that does appreciate their company.
Either way the main and important thing is that Carrie is over it all and has a wicked dude to prove it.
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